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Photo:  H McPherson

Photo: H McPherson

Insomnia defined: a sleep disorder that is characterized by difficulty falling and/or staying asleep. Hmmm, well, here we go again. Another beautiful Montreal night. Hot, crickets chirping, streetlights on, and so quiet. Beautifully quiet. 4:00 and Montreal is another world. Likely you have experienced this as well. So what is the problem? I am not stressed out; I’ve relaxed all summer. No assignments, no readings. I have spent the better part of the summer reading and puttering, as planned. But I go to bed and BAM, this theory or that lens pops into my head and there it stays.

Psychology Today (2012) noted that grad school “for many students it is the most energetically demanding time of their lives, not just for the hours put in, but the cognitive resources required to think critically and absorb complex material”. And yes, that’s right. The end result of all this complex and critical thinking is insomnia. How annoying. Sleep is required to carry on with all this complex thinking, but this complex thinking is killing sleep. So, I looked it up to see what can be done. Here is the advice:

Good sleep habits, also called sleep hygiene, can help you get a good night’s sleep and beat insomnia. Here are some tips:

¥ Go to sleep at the same time each night and get up at the same time each morning. Don’t take naps because naps may make you less sleepy at night.
¥ Avoid caffeine, nicotine, and alcohol late in the day. Caffeine and nicotine are stimulants and can keep you from falling asleep. Alcohol can cause waking in the night and interferes with sleep quality.
¥ Get regular exercise, but not 3-4 hours before bedtime, because it may stimulate you and make it hard to fall asleep.
¥ Don’t eat a heavy meal late in the day. A light snack before bedtime, however, may help you sleep.
¥ Make your bedroom comfortable: dark, quiet, and not too warm or too cold.
¥ Follow a routine to help you relax before sleep. Read a book, listen to music, or take a bath.
¥ If you can’t fall asleep and don’t feel drowsy, get up and read or do something that is not overly stimulating until you feel sleepy, but avoid screens. (Webmb.com)

A final note: personally, none of the above advice works!!! But all of your grad student insomniacs – enjoy your studies. 4:00 really is a glorious time to be awake.

Work cited:
Searles, R. (2012). Sleep and grad school: how important is it for students? Psychology Today. https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-stone-age-mind/201209/sleep-and-grad-school-how-important-is-it-students


Time out! A year outside gradlife

Instagram / @gradlifemcgill by @na0mirlima

Instagram / @gradlifemcgill by @na0mirlima

The second year of my master, I didn’t really know what to do next. Job? PhD? Travelling in the vast world? Sleeping a whole year? I was clearly tired of studying day and night but afraid to go outside in the real world.

I wrote to a teacher I had in cegep and asked for his advice. He told me to take a break from university. So I didn’t apply to become a PhD.

At the end of my master in French Literature, I became an intern in communication and then I apply to work in Paris with LOJIQ in a small startup where I ended to do marketing/social media/communications. After a lot of work and some good bottles of wine, I came back to the first company I worked for as an employee.

In the meantime, I search for a supervisor in an English university to maybe, maybe start a PhD. I did the paperwork, try to get a scholarship, but without full commitment.

That year of break was the best thing.


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Rolling with the Punches: Coping with Change in Grad School

Photo by Flickr user Frederico Cintra.

Photo by Flickr user Frederico Cintra.

Entering the second semester of my master’s, I was following my proposed schedule perfectly. I had completed all of my required course work, applied for funding, and helped with data collection for our second year master’s student. I learned how to use relevant processing programs for my lab work, read what felt like one million articles, and put it all together to develop my thesis topic. From there, I wrote my literature review (after reading more articles), worked tirelessly to process pilot data, and even found an undergraduate student who was willing to help me. Finally, my formal thesis proposal presentation was one month away. I went into my weekly lab meeting feeling very accomplished, ready to informally present my progress and finalize what was going into my presentation.

During that meeting, my thesis topic changed.


My experience at Thèsez-vous

Have you heard about this amazing concept that is Thèsez-vous? It is a retreat for grad students in a beautiful and quiet spot where all you have to worry about for three days is writing. For non-French speaking readers, “Thèsez-vous” is a word play between thèse (a thesis) and taisez-vous which means “Be quiet”.


The idea came from graduate students who thought about what could help them and other students in the same situation finish their thesis. It all started in June, 2015 and it has been growing ever since. I heard about it from my colleague who is not only working full time but also struggling to finish her memoir. She thought Thèsez-vous would be a nice push to the finish line.


Yes, they exist! McGill’s resources for students parents

McGill Family Care Program/ Facebook

McGill Family Care Program/ Facebook


As I said, I started a PhD with a 5-months baby at home. I thought I was alone in the world (ok, on the campus), but no! Last year, I don’t remember how, I learned that McGill has just created the Family Care Program. Because students parents are maybe not a big part of the McGill community, but they are certainly not a few, even if they are hard to track.

So I asked the new Family Coordinator, Julia Pingeton, a few questions about the program. I hope it will help other students parents.

Why does the Family Care Program exist?

The Family Care Program exists at McGill because the Senate Subcommittee on Women saw the need for someone dedicated to serving student and staff needs. There has always been someone working on family issues with the faculty at McGill, as the faculty relocation advisor, but there was very little in terms of support for students and staff. They got support from many other groups involved in family care and were able to fund a grant for this position for two years! This program aims to connect students and staff with children with resources on campus and in the greater Montreal community.


Publish or Perish


Eight months ago I submitted my first journal article for publication. I was given lots of invaluable advice from other students and especially from my advisor. Things such as have friends/colleagues give feedback, read articles published by the journal to determine structural and language norms, and of course get an idea of the conversations occurring in the journal articles. I read at least 40 articles previously published in the journal. Then I just wrote it, my first journal article. My advisor gave feedback, and off the article went. This was at the beginning of my PhD studies.

Then, I waited. Forever.

Finally, six weeks ago I received a reply. The reviewers had wonderful comments that were insightful and remarkably helpful. They asked for changes. I mostly felt – wow – I would never have written this today. What a mess! It was not quite (but almost) embarrassing to read what I thought was good, and then finding it was not so good in light of everything I had learned about writing, and about my field of interest (science education). The thing is, there was no commitment to the article. Were they conditionally accepting the article IF I made changes, or …? Or what? Of course I made the required edits, and basically rewrote the entire thing. Groaning about duh, how could I have written this? And then I sent if off again, and the waiting resumed.

WooHoo! It was accepted today, exactly 8 months after I submitted it. So, there it is. Go for it, wait, edit and hope. Personally, what I felt was the best part of this process (aside from having an article accepted, which is quite simply amazing) was what I learned from the peer reviewers. I just learned so much, and I’m using all of of these newly acquired insights in an article that I am currently working on, and hope to submit before the end of the summer.

A McGillian in Paris

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So here it is. My first ever video. Actually, that’s only half true. I have made videos before but only the type you keep buried on one of your external hard drives in case the day comes when you want to show your children ‘what life was like when I was a teenager’. So it would be more accurate to say that this is my first ever public video. Fingers crossed it won’t turn out to be one of those that should have remained hidden on my hard drive.

I was lucky enough to go back to Paris this month to see my family and stock up on some good wine, food and company. I wanted to start off with a fun ‘vlog type’ video so decided to film small snippets of Parisian life and show you one of my favourite places to eat: Le Camion Qui Fume. As you’ll see in the video this is one of the most successful burger joints in Paris and you’ll often see a long line of Parisians in front of the food truck on their lunch break hoping to secure an infamous burger. I must admit it’s not the most typical of French cuisine but think of it as a burger American in size and French in style.

I hope you enjoy the video and I’m so excited to share more content with you very soon. Hopefully the video inspired you to give yourself a break from your studying (#McGillianAbroad) or encouraged you to get out and see something new (although you’re probably already out and about chasing Pokemon).

Check out my fellow bloggers and instagrammers for loads more travel inspiration.

Enjoy and see you soon!

Smoothing Out The Grind.

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Part of being a graduate student is liberation! Finally, free of from the shackles of introductory undergraduate classes that are accompanied by the colossus that is studying. Regrettably, being a grad student also pins you into the category of very cheap labor. I personally felt an annoyance of three parts the day I found out that my assistant, a summer student, is paid better than I am because he is paid by the hour.

Though I cannot speak for all graduate students, I do know that for most of my fellow laboratory trainees there exists robots capable of easily automating the larger portion of the bench work we do. That being the case, I am old friends with repetition, a slow and torturous soul-killer that is known to many others as well. Of course repetition is our friend in many ways, helping to squeak our n-values towards significance, still it is also the bane of maintaining an interesting existence.

In my valiant attempts to combat the trials of monotony I have spent a good deal of time sampling the various options available to aid me in battle. Of course the go-to for most people is music, which is all well and good for a lot of people but I have grown to find it disappointingly unstimulating in the long-haul. So what was next for me? Technically I first tried listening to TEDtalk videos as well as talk-radio, but we’ll skip straight to the best thing so far, and that is podcasts! (more…)

Devoir concilier études graduées et maternité




Le 11 février 2013, vers 7h du matin, j’ai découvert avec surprise que j’étais enceinte. Vers 13h le même jour, je recevais un courriel de McGill disant que j’étais acceptée au doctorat en histoire avec une bourse d’entrée. Il y a des jours comme ça où une grosse nouvelle n’attend pas l’autre. Après avoir paniqué, je me suis dit que l’Univers m’envoyait un signe: « go, ma grande, fais les deux.»

Marion a écrit à propos de la conciliation études et travail à temps plein. Personnellement, je dois conjuguer avec la maternité qui prend – littéralement – tout mon temps. J’ai maintenant deux enfants. F-A qui vient de terminer (heureusement) sa phase de terrible two et M-A qui nous gazouille ses sourires du haut de ses 5 mois.

Et je fais un doctorat.

Ces deux aspects de ma vie ont vraiment beaucoup en commun.

D’abord, c’est du temps plein, tout le temps, en tout lieu. Quand je suis à l’école, j’ai toujours mon cellulaire pas loin au cas où fièvre-bobo-autre frappe l’un ou l’autre de mes héritiers. Matins, soirs et fins de semaine sont dédiés à la vie familiale, soit amuser, nourrir et laver l’immense tas de linge sale des petits.

Le doctorat est aussi un plus que temps plein: je travaille dessus la semaine, le soir après le dodo des enfants, pendant les siestes et j’y pense quand mon cerveau n’est pas occupé à gérer des crises de jalousie ou des fous rires. J’y pense quand je pousse la poussette, quand je me couche, quand je range (encore) les jouets qui trainent.

@gradlifemcgill / Instagram

@gradlifemcgill / Instagram

Faire une recherche prenante, c’est comme un bébé: l’immense fierté des progrès, l’incertitude, la remise en question de mes compétences, l’exaspération quand rien ne va comme je veux. Et des fois j’ai envie de tout balancer par la fenêtre.

À intervalle régulier, j’ai juste envie de démissionner de ma thèse ou de ma vie de mère et d’aller vivre sur une île déserte un petit moment ou, de manière plus réaliste, d’aller dans un spa et un bar (ben oui). Mais inévitablement, quand ENFIN j’y arrive, je pense… aux enfants ou la recherche. Surtout s’il y a quelqu’un avec moi. En effet, je passe 100% de mon temps à être mère ou étudiante: les sujets de small talk ne sont pas si nombreux en dehors de ça!

Bref, être mère aux études graduées c’est prenant, épuisant, énervant et… je n’ai envie de faire rien d’autre.

Comment conciliez-vous études graduées à temps plein avec le reste de votre vie?


Please don’t make me go on vacation

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I fully realize that this is really messed up. Tomorrow morning, my husband and I are heading off to Newfoundland, the only part of Canada we have never visited (it is all about those yummy ads). Now, I love to travel and see new places.  I have only heard wonderful things about the rugged beauty of Newfoundland. Anywhere that can say “Its about as far from Disney Land as you can possibly get” sounds great to me.

So what’s the problem?

Well, I just want to stay home and write and putter and write and putter.  I understand the importance of maintaining a balance while going to grad school.  Is it really unbalanced to want to stay home? (BTW – I know the answer to this, that’s why I’m going on a vacation).

In my defense, I work full time as a high school teacher, and I am doing this degree full time as well. So I see this as my one opportunity to just be a student and write and putter and write and putter. Of course, friends have said that if I go on a vacation I will come back refreshed and invigorated. But what if I come back stressed out about the lost opportunity to write and putter and write and putter? Pathetic, no?

I have a family member who was a university professor.  We watched him, and kind of judged him because all he did was work.  The entire family had to insist that he take a weekend off once ever summer to go to his daughter’s cottage for one night.  The only way he would go was if we promised that he could leave after lunch on the Sunday. 29 hours away from his work was the max. Here’s the thing – now I get it.

So is it ok if I bring my computer, encourage my husband to bring some books and go for long runs (fitness is important, right?) and hope for rainy days, not sunny days? Cause that’s my plan.

Writing this, I feel like a real slug. I read writing a blog had the potential to be therapeutic. Right now, all I can hope for is self awareness.  Whoa.  Wait a minute – it is going to be great to get away and see the rugged splendor of Gros Morne, the Viking trail and  L’Anse aux Meadows, and eat at awesome restaurants in St. John’s.  OK, its all good – I’m ready to go and have a great vacation.  Blogging IS therapeutic, and it is going to be great.  Really! Now I’m excited.  Have to go and pack.

And don’t forget, success as a grad student means keeping things balanced.  It’s the key.  As well as the ability to laugh at yourself.

Happy trails, to all. Have a great summer, whether you are writing and reading, or enjoying family, or discovering new places to go. Cheers, and all the best.

Francophone à McGill cherche confiance en anglais

Source: Unsplash / https://pixabay.com/fr/américaine-livres-boîtes-boîte-1209605/

Source: Unsplash / pixabay.com


Je m’appelle Fannie, j’ai décidé volontairement d’étudier à McGill parce que c’est une université anglophone même si…  l’anglais n’a jamais été ma force. Ajoutons à cela une timidité que j’ai mis plus de vingt ans à vaincre pour pouvoir m’exprimer librement et facilement dans ma langue maternelle.

Bref, pour le dire en bon québécois: j’ai la chienne chaque fois que je dois parler ou écrire en anglais.

Ma première session à McGill, soit quatre cours de propédeutique avant de commencer mon doctorat, je l’ai passée avec un mal de tête presque constant. C’est une chose d’écouter des séries américaines et de lire quelques livres par-ci, par-là, mais c’en est une autre de vivre en anglais au quotidien. De devoir comprendre les accents, les termes techniques, de traduire, de lire près de mille pages par semaine dans une langue qui ne m’était pas si familière.

Les premières semaines de cours, je me notais des phrases à l’avance pour pouvoir participer en classe. J’attendais le bon moment pour les lancer, avant de soupirer de soulagement dès que je pouvais retomber dans mon mutisme.

J’ai toujours écrit en français, ayant peur que mes textes ne soient pas à la hauteur de mes idées. Et parce qu’il me faut beaucoup plus de temps pour écrire dans la langue de Shakespeare.

J’ai littéralement tremblé de peur dans mes premières classes en tant que T.A. Je m’excusais à l’avance pour toutes les erreurs que j’allais commettre en anglais.

Et… j’ai survécu.

Je dirais même plus: mon plan masochiste pour m’obliger à améliorer mon anglais a fonctionné. J’ai plus appris en deux ans de doctorat qu’en neuf années de cours à l’école. Plusieurs étudiants de ma première session en tant que T.A. m’ont dit d’arrêter de m’en faire pour le niveau de ma langue. J’ai commencé à penser – et même parfois rêver! – en anglais. Je sais pertinemment que je fais des erreurs, que je cherche parfois mes mots, mais je suis beaucoup moins stressée.

Sauf à l’écrit, the final frontier. Les paroles s’envolent, mais les écrits restent. J’ai encore peur de me jeter à l’eau.

C’est pourquoi la langue a été le thème de mon premier billet. Pour expliquer pourquoi j’écris en français… et pour me donner le défi de faire quelques textes en anglais. Merci d’excuser mes erreurs, n’hésitez pas à me corriger. J’ai plein d’autres qualités, vous allez voir.

Comment se passent vos expériences dans une langue seconde?



How to be a full time graduate student with a dream job?

Studying hard, getting into graduate school to get a better job – yes! Working part-time on the side to pay for your studies, your rent, food or any activity – yes*2. Finding your dream job while you’re still studying, keeping it for experience and potentially as a first job? Let’s try it.


Let’s talk about the different types of student jobs. You can work anywhere just for the income, with no particular interest in the field, potentially with a good team, close to your place or your university. Any convenience will be appreciated for this type of job but mostly, it pays your groceries and that’s all you need.

Then, there is the golden nuggets kind of student job. Basically, your dream job but two years too early. That’s what I got. I started working for an art gallery two years ago. It was an “on call” job where I was supervising art pieces during private events at the gallery. After a few events, they asked me if I wanted to get a part time job, two days per week working at the front desk. I had to welcome customers, answer the phone, learn a bit about the art, smile and basically just be there. I could even do my homework while working. The perfect combination.

Photo by Marion M.

That was a year and a half ago. I finished my bachelor degree, took some time off whenever I was in a rush for finals or needed vacations.

September 2015, McGill University. A whole new chapter of my life. I started with absolutely no idea of what being a graduate student meant. I thought it was going to be just like undergrad with longer papers and less exams. At the exact same time, I got an offer from the gallery: to become the new community manager, which meant, back then, maintaining our Facebook, Instagram and Twitter accounts up to date. I said I would try it for a month and see how it would fit with school. It worked pretty well.


I loved having the balance of work and school. On one side I was learning so much from amazing teachers, meeting new people in my field, discovering a new student life, a new campus. On the other side, I had concrete and instant results. I would write a newsletter, translate it, correct it and send it to 2500 people in one click. After that, those people would come and see our exhibitions, they would take photos, post them, tag us, like us, etc. You know how social media works.

Photo by Marion M.

Although I felt like I had found the perfect balance, I realised this only happened because I had seminars to take and credits to earn, in a nutshell, short term projects to focus on. Writing a 100 pages thesis seems like a completely different rhythm.


Now the dilemma. I spent 20 hours per week at work versus 6 hours per week at school. Since I work on social media, I also get constant notifications and emails that go with the job. Our Facebook page response rate is 3 minutes… You see my problem? I love it so much and I take so much pride in this concrete result that I can’t disconnect. I want to (or do I?) but I don’t know how. I’m physically and mentally always working. At the same time, my thesis subject is great, I’m passionate about it too, but every time, it takes me a while to get into it. I need a few days to focus on school, not think about work and then I can write.

Summer is passing by, September is staring at me wondering how am I going to balance both my job and my thesis.

So far, the best solution I found is this new retreat concept called “Thèsez-vous“. More about it on my next post.

Do you also have trouble balancing your job and your studies?

Guy writes article, what he did next will amaze you. . .

So how much did you hate that title just now? That, my friend, is what they call click-bait, pure and simple. As unwitting participants and harbingers of the modern world, we have created an endemic distraction environment that is both disappointing and infuriating. When scrolling through Facebook, even I disappoint myself by way of where my cursor wanders. The sad truth is that click-bait works, no matter how aware of it we become. How much do you honestly care about the “What happens next…” of 99.999% of articles out there? After clicking on one of those links to an ad-ridden article have you ever later reflected that the experience bettered you in any way? I doubt anyone has, or at least a very small (trending to zero) percentage of the time.

Why does click-bait work so well? I’ll leave out most of the talk about dopamine release, but what it really comes down to is that humans like to gamble. We get pleasure from rewards, like an interesting video or article, and when you only get that reward an unpredictable fraction of the time your brain goes bat-shit-crazy for more of that stimulus; standard addiction phenomenon. The next time you find yourself mindlessly scrolling through your newsfeed clicking at every “Oo shiny!” moment, just remember that the only thing separating you from that old lady playing 24-hour slots at the local bar is that you don’t stand to make any money.

Now let’s go on a bit of a tangent so that I may indulge my own theories.  What are the things we click on most? That’s easy, cute animals and lists! But why? Things like this are hard to measure so let us do what all megalomaniacs do; take personal speculation for truth. Humans love both babies and cute animals by natural evolutionary instinct. This was likely a driving force for our ancestors when domesticating animals. This trait was quickly selected for and made ubiquitous in the surviving populations due to the massive advantages of domestic animals in early human life. Liking cute animals is no fault of our own, it’s just genetics so don’t feel bad about clicking on cute hedgehog pictures. The other titan of internet drivel is lists! We are innately lazy creatures so the concept of a list is an excellent shortcut to avoid exerting too much mental effort. Much less reading is required and, more importantly, much less cognitive processing because we need not do any meaningful analysis of content. All the information presented to us is already placed in order of importance or relevance by some arbitrary source and grading scheme.

As a whole, distraction is hardly our fault. If you need a scapegoat then biology is always right there, waiting to take the fall. It’s constantly inappropriately distributing awards and predisposing us towards interests that mass media companies can take advantage of in order to bolster their ad revenues.

Montreal: Moving Madness

A cautionary tale of busy friends and grumpy families.

What you are about to read is a true story.  I know because I was there.

The date:  June 15 at a family supper.  At the table, a student, a kid brother, mom, and dad:

Student: “Sooo, I was wondering what everyone is doing on Canada day.”

Kid Brother: “NO! NO! NO!  I’m not doing it! I told you last year, and the year before and the year before that I was never going to help you move again.”

Mother: “Well, you know I can’t help because I wrecked my knees.  Sorry.”

Dad: “Look, this is the fourth year in a row. This is getting ridiculous.”

The date: June 25. Out with friends

Student: “Sooo, I thought it would be great if everyone came over to my apartment on Canada Day.  I’ll supply pizza and beer.”

Friends:  Total Silence.

Only in Quebec, they say. In the end Dad is there with the van, kid brother, very pissed off, and one friend. Only in June, in Quebec does the offer of pizza and beer result in lost friends.  What is it with this annual relocation of a city? A 2013 source estimated that about 115,000 of Montreal’s 1.6 million residents relocate every year (Austin, 2013). I know because I was there.

Why does 7% of Canada’s second largest city move on the same day?  Even if you could afford it, the possibility of getting a moving truck or van is zero. Then there are the problems of all those abandoned pets at the SPCA.  And the old furniture on the curb. There has to be a reason.  So what is it?


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Cultivating Mindfulness & Emotional Awareness

Mindfulness. (Credit: http://www.kazoobooks.com/mindfulness-drop-in-class/)


There is always so much to worry about in graduate school: from academic performance, finances, staying healthy and in a nutshell, trying to achieve a balanced lifestyle. For the past year, I decided to go on a path for finding (and keeping) balance. This included getting to know exercise; attending yoga and meditation classes; committing to healthier eating choices; and above all, emotional healing. I ended up enrolling in a 4-week workshop offered by McGill’s Counseling Services (MCS) on cultivating emotional awareness (currently being offered as “Skills for Emotional Regulation” starting November 2nd.) Throughout the workshop, Philip Lemieux, a psychologist at the MCS, emphasized that the most important message to take home from this workshop is “the planting of the mindfulness practice seed”.


Sciencescape: A New Tool For Accelerated Efficient Research

Image from Sciencescape

Image from Sciencescape

When my father was a young professional working for a German company designing solar panels, they used to have team meetings almost every day to discuss the progression of the research. Every day, the secretary would be the first one to arrive to scour new articles published in engineering journals in order to keep the team fully updated. He would then type up his findings and make several copies for the attendees to discuss during the meeting.

Now imagine how easier this job would have been if, say, there was a Twitter-like platform where he could log onto from the comfort of his home; check his feed on current literature; receive notifications as soon as a paper gets published; organize the literature in a virtual library; and be able to digitally share this library with the team instead of printing copies. He would be able to cash in quite a few more hours of sleep! But sleeping aside, imagine if you could have a Twitter-like platform being updated 24/7 and notifying you of all the breakthroughs in literature the second they come out. Imagine having not to miss out on reading a recent paper that might greatly improve your research or that might discuss the same experiments you are working on, giving you hints on what works or not so you can change your course accordingly without losing time. Suddenly, being scooped doesn’t feel like the approach of the apocalypse, but a minor setback in the course of your graduate studies.


Tightrope walking


I don’t know if other students feel like this at any point in their PhD journey. For me, this sensation has come during the “home stretch”. In other words – at the worst possible time.

It is not uncommon for graduate students to feel down or discouraged at some points of their degree. Everyone knows the PhD road is long and replete with intellectual challenges, time-stealing setbacks, daunting skills to learn in very little time, and experiences that propel us far outside of our comfort zone. It is not uncommon for PhD students to feel fatigued, overwhelmed or disheartened. Waves of negative emotions may come and go, amplified by the constant pressure of deadlines and high standards. It is the small victories in between that make the waves recede and that keep us going, suddenly reminding us of why we love what we do and why we wish to keep doing it.

But that common feeling is not exactly what I am alluding to. This is something a little more difficult to put into words – a feeling of fragility and transience, uncertainty and instability, not only towards one’s work but also one’s own self. Let me try to explain.


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